good morning fellow ribos 😃 update: i am no longer giving jongho the silent treatment !! 😁😁 today im coping after yesterday's events that unfolded & after sitting and pondering for a few hours about the 'everything' mv......... i feel better ❤️‍🩹 . but before i moved on from my heartbreak...... my HBD kit arrived at my doorstep and i literally almost ripped it apart like a rabid dog, i was so upset .❗️😭🐺 It was like everything i did and everywhere i went i was just constantly reminded of jongho and i felt so torn idk why??? he didn't even do anything wrong, but i guess i was just so far in the parasocial relationship that seeing him ACTING with a female costar & up until now, i truly realized how unhealthy my attachment was 🫠🫠🫠 like gurlll...... i need to uhhh take it down a notch i think 😁😁☝🏻☝🏻 like loving jongho a normal amount wasn't a thing for me . i love him like he's my son like i care and worry for him like he's my own blood and he doesn't even know me. 😃 now..... i need to just breathe and also not make myself sick over the fact that he is a grown man and can date whoever he wants 😭😭😭 like i truly felt heartbreak yesterday... like my actual ex had just broken up with me..... why did i do that to myself, that is not normal. 😐 i literally threw up yesterday thinking about it like WHAT 😟😟😟😭😭😖😖⁉️⁉️ maybe i'm a bit mentally ill luv 🤭🤭😍😍😍 anyways though............. i'm going to rethink the way i view & attatch myself to idols and celebrities bc this is really mentally draining for me & not healthy at all 😩😓 i will always love jongho though, no matter what. even when he's a middle-aged man married with children, or when ATEEZ is no longer together, or even when i grow older and no longer keep up with him like i do now, i will look up to jongho and have all the love for him in the world <3 he makes me the happiest person, and even yesterday when i was so sad and hurting.... my love was still there because i could never ever lose sight of the fact that jongho loves ATINY more than anything. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹✨✨✨ my jjong, little haribo bear boy, you'll always have my heart no matter what happens. ATINY loves and supports you, and we're so proud of you for working hard. & now after finally recuperating and calming down.... i can say now after opening it, that your birthday merch is so cute!!!! ❗️🎂🍰 me and you officially have matching phone cases bae (AND MATCHING PHONES TOO) <333 it feels so special and i love the idea that ATINY can share this with you !!!! im so so appreciative of you jongho :-) love you always! #종호 #최종호 #jongho