Don't read if you're allergic to pathetic persons but... In fact even after 28hrs, I'm very frustrated to not have my ultimate vip because it might be the only chance I had to say "I love you and I'll support you for the rest of my life" to #jongho (or another member ofc). Just this. Less than 10 words, less than 10 seconds. It was very important for me. I already messed up with fancalls, I haven't been very strategical for a person that wants this with her guts. This year, I messed up my Black Cat Nero competition and failed meeting Ateez. Maybe I should stop being present every day to show my support if it's not real support. I'm not even sure my various votes for previous comebacks or else helped. Why does it feel impossible for me to be a simple casual fan? Why do I have to live with so much passion ever since I was a little girl?