Sannie, Yesterday was a horrible day for me, it was no longer rain but a torrent of bad news. I ended up on one knee. Usually when days are hard I use 2 methods: 1- even when the schedule is tight, too bad, I lie down for 1 hour without doing anything at all, just to put myself back in time; 2- I listen to your voice to calm me down and see a light in this darkness. It helps a lot, but yesterday I couldn't do any of that, so today I've decided to stay locked up without seeing anyone, and I'm not going to see my best friend as planned. I need to regain my strength. I finished watching Queen of tears and finally the 2nd part was better. The hero really reminds me of you because I'm sure you'd take a bullet for your beloved, you're that kind of person. But please take care of yourself, you're very precious to me, I would take a bullet too to save you, without any hesitation. I keep saying it but your future wife is very lucky, I hope she'll take good care of you. I'm sorry to write to you when things aren't going well, but you're my safe place. Anyway I'm hanging in there every day thanks to you and the delulu I can get on Toktoq. I don't know if one day I hurt you with one of my posts but I apologize in advance, it's not intentional, I only have love for you and I like to tease you as if you were family because for me you are. My words may be clumsy at times (especially in English) but my heart is pure. I miss you very much and was devastated not to have been able to attend my 1st pop with you. The more I climb this mountain the more I love it, thanks to you I have a good butt (haha). By the time I write you I love you, I already love you more so I'll never be able to tell you the value of my love in writing. I hope you have a wonderful day, take care of yourself. I'm going back to my cave. To my favorite dimple. LOVE LOVE LOVE 💜💜💜 #SAN