to ateez: i hope you're all doing well today. has the weather turned warmer yet? i hope the sun is gently shining on you wherever you go. even though things are busy and becoming even busier with preparations for coachella ahead, i hope each of you has restful moments in between to just slow down, pause, see the changing of seasons and enjoy little things moment by moment. yunho, your birthday is so close now, and even though i know it's busy and you'll have things scheduled, i really hope you can get some time that is purely for you. not to worry about anyone else or do anything for anyone else. time that is solely for you to spend as you choose. hongjoong, it's regrettably later than i would have liked, but biggest congrats to you on the collab! you both did an amazing job, and your part turned out so cool. hearing little bits of behind the scenes from chung ha's interviews, as much as it makes me so proud of you as ateez' captain, it's even moreso for you as you. your beautiful heart and your kind soul shine in everything you do. i hope this was a fun experience for you, and that it leads to everything you hope and dream of and more. there is truly no one like you, and your light is cherished. hongjoong, seonghwa, mingi, san, yeosang, wooyoung, yunho, and jongho, even if i don't write to you specifically every time, please know that every one of you is in my thoughts each day. even when i can't write at all, i'm still wishing you the best that each day can bring. even though i've written many of these here by this point, even though i've written two physical letters now, my heart feels so much, too much to sort into proper words and sentences. it becomes a tangle that i can never fully bring to full clarity. the love and respect and gratitude, i hope it's still felt. even if everything i write to you remains a poor reflection of the fuller truth. you are, all of you, appreciated so much and your lights are never taken for granted. i've walked a bit more, in the mornings. even if there's a bit of chill to the air, it helps clear my mind for a bit. anchors me away from all of the noise for little while. it's getting harder, the anxiety has become bad again. it's a battle between fear for the days ahead and hope brought from people like you. it gets hard to see that hope some days, especially when the voices around me, the energy surrounding me daily, get so angry and filled with hate. but just knowing there are people like you in this hurting world, that just by living as you, by being alive and being a part of something beautiful by choosing love, choosing compassion and kindness, that gives me hope. in those moments before the stars fade into a silver horizon, before deep blue blossoms into golden sunrise, just as silence breaks in the first morning song and becomes a choir of birds, i think about you and those like you. i really love this world. i love being a part of it. despite, and in spite, of everything wrong, i cherish it. i cherish all of you. the people, animals, and plants. walking through dense trees and feeling the tangible pulse of green. standing by my cherished place and watching the gentle ripples or powerful waves, hearing the gulls above, the closest i've ever come to knowing the sea. sitting beneath trees in the rain, eyes closed, and letting the sound and the scent of petrichor wash over me. spending long hours deep in thought or the sudden moments laughing until i cry over the most insignificant thing because i'm tired and that made it funny. i'm alive, and even when those moments strike and i'm so scared, i want to live every moment given to the fullest possible without regret. this world is so beautiful still, even now. when i write, when i talk, i know it can turn really serious. if nothing else, i hope it can all become a piece of hope to you in some way. that rather than placing a burden, it can ease the weight on your spirits and shoulders. i'm grateful to you more than you'll ever know. thank you. in the rest of your day, may it be warm and kind. may you stay safe and as healthy as possible. be kind to you, show yourselves love, patience, and compassion. eat well and rest well. remember vitamins. dream the loveliest of dreams. treat yourselves to something nice that brings happiness. now and always, in every second, minute, hour, day, week, month, year, and beyond, you are loved. you are loved and cared about so, so much. we are all, together, a galaxy of stars and we are never alone. take care, i send you my light and my love today as always. thank you. i love you 🎶🐦💚☀️🌕✨🍀🌻 - ari #ateez #에이티즈 #hongjoong #홍중 #seonghwa #성화 #yunho #윤호 #yeosang #여상 #san #산 #mingi #민기 #wooyoung #우영 #jongho #종호 #larknotes